Ssssh! I am trying to live here!

There is nothing more unnerving than silence. The awkward silence in a conversation just before someone breaks unnerving news. The silence before a baby gasps for air and starts to cry at the top of its lungs at birth. And better yet; the silence you experience in your home when the lights go out. When the blanket of silence falls; all your guards fall. You become alone with yourself; left to face the truth.

There is a certain Chinese proverb that says that there are three reflections of a human. What you see, what others see and the truth. And the truth; the real you, the vulnerable and unsure person; that real person comes out in silence.

For so long I had a need to constantly work with music, listen to music on the go; the need to make noise or have movement. I knew I was hiding from myself. The world we live in makes it easier for us to live in noise and tune out the real us.  

I found the real me; broken hurting and insecure in silence. It took a lot of time and fidgeting to find comfort in silence. I have more time to think, strategize and enjoy my own company. You can roam around asking yourself how to be rich and comfortable, get the adoration of others or even get some credit from your friends and family. But that will never come till you find and know yourself.

Honesty comes in silence. Truth comes in silence and great revelations come in silence. If you can take just 5 minutes out of your day to be in a place undisturbed and in utter silence with a note book. Jot all the things that come to your head. And one by one, moment by moment you will begin to see areas in your life that you need to work on and build. And slowly and surely you will begin to enjoy your own company and your life.