My life is taking a new turn. There are so many things that I am learning. Some have been obvious and forthright. But there is something about things being in your face all the time. It is easy to get blinded by them.
We all know about discipline, we are quick to point out its absence in other people; and especially its absence in children and teens.
But how often do you openly admit it to yourself with regard to your waking schedule? How about with your deadlines at work, and your personal goals?
I had a dream yesterday that got me thinking when I woke up. I dreamt that I was in a field playing basketball with my peers. It was a dream that was set in my high school days. I used to play netball and not basketball in high school. It was still an engaging sport; no matter what you haters say. :P But this time the sport was different. I was more amazed at how alive I was in that dream. How energetic and enthusiastic I was. Maybe I was even smiling in my sleep (only God knows that for sure!) but I literally felt like I really was in that field playing. It felt great!
I have been thinking of getting back into sport, dancing and doing a refresher on music and playing instruments. I used to play the recorder. I feel as if my true essence is in re-engaging with the things I loved in my pre-teens and teens.
A friend of mine pointed out to me that the fact that I have been spending more time in prayer is causing me to begin to connect with part of me that was lost in the mess we call the rat race.
I honestly feel like a part of me that was lost is now coming back. I just need the courage to get started. And yes, the discipline to keep at it. I am more conscious and aware of myself; my flaws are becoming more pronounced to me. And I am more willing to correct them and also focus on building myself.
I like this life now than what it was before. One day at a time, one moment at a time I am growing to love and appreciate myself even more. And my self confidence has grown 1000 fold!
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